Disgust

02/26/07-04/14/07-11/26/07

I feel the fingers rape my body
I yell 'make it stop! make it stop please!'
I yell it till my lungs start to bleed
But no one arrives, I'm still all alone
I crawl into a dream and wait till it's done
I'd rather have acid drip out of my eyes
Or roast in the sun until my skin fries
But no
There will be no scars, no signs of my pain
I'll stay quiet and it'll happen again
I'm trapped in a cell without any walls
I stare blankly outside as the night starts to fall

You think this is funny GOD!!
Do you think this shit is funny!
I thought you're supposed to be here to protect me
Why did you leave
Does this shit amuse you?
I thought loving me was what you're supposed to do

Well fuck it, I'm done
This isn't fun
Anymore
Feeling like a worthless whore
Each sound, each motion, each memory creeps
Each time I'm about to go to sleep

I can't take it,
Fuck this shit
I'm tired of fighting
I'm over it, I hate it
I'm tired of crying

Goodbye...