Surrender

I surrender to a God that has yet to respond
I surrender to the rays that reach out from the sun
I surrender to the wind tearing moments apart
I surrender to the cold blanketing my heart
I surrender to the waves that push me away
I surrender to the moon that ends another day

I surrender to the light that burn out from the stars
I surrender to the pain lingering around my scars
I surrender to the night shadowing my fears
I surrender to time collecting all my years
I surrender to the heat that shoots out from my rage
I surrender to the sky and all the emptiness it saves

I surrender to the doubt that contaminates my mind
I surrender to the choices I have left behind
I surrender to life and all it's unknowns
I surrender to experience and accept that I've grown
I surrender to the past and to all it's attachments
I surrender to the future of no more commitments

And last but not least
I surrender to Love and all it's (im)perfections
And to all the challenges I've risen above
To find my true direction

I've given in to resistance
And left suspicion at the door
I've offered up my trust to you
Challenging the universe no more

See me - 02/06/08

See me/Silent Eyes
02/19/08

Over mountains drenched with snow
Trying to figure out where to go
Following the trail before it's gone
Cuz I'm too scared to be alone

Like sweet olives dipped in black
They reflect my soul before I react
A puddle caressing the night's sky
There land my tears before I cry

Grab my hand and walk with me
Be the moon so I can see
Lay the path for me to follow
Hold me close and never let go

Who knew that we'd be here right now
I'm exposed to the elemental truth
That you've loved me when I didn't know how
And it's all because of you

Stay here with me forever
I'm so amazed how this could be
I thank god you landed here
You're my angel and you set me free

Lying right next to me
Is a reality born from all my dreams
Emancipated from my misery
My eyes finally able to see me

Battle wounds II

01/18/08

The open sores from my emotional mutilations
Are exposed underneath the searing sun
They sizzle and bleed out the nightmarish poison
Paralyzing my legs before they can run

I'm stuck between my enemy's borders
Entering territory of no return
Bullets rain from above the clouds
As they hit me, the hatred starts to burn

Mangled and lifeless is my emotional carcass
A bag of resentments weigh me down
My chest ripped open, my heart dragging
Grasping for anyone who may be around

To pull me out of this planned attack
Another blitz from the devils crusade
Preventing me from reaching heaven's door
And reminding me that I can never be saved

But I still reach for where I hear freedom lives
A place where the past disintegrates
Present comforts and invites you to stay
And empathy is ready to easily relate

To the journey I took to reach this place
To the battle I fought despite my hesitation
To the unending war that rages within
To the overwhelming choke hold of my desperation

But here I lay, still all alone
Wondering if I'll ever make it home
Death dismembering my dignity
Until my whole is completely gone