Mothers Love

11/20/06

I love your tiny burps
I love your loud cries
I love the little tears
That fall from your eyes

I love your tiny hands
I love your tiny toes
I love your big ol' cheeks
And your itty bitty nose

I love your tiny fingers
I love your tiny feet
I love how you look so peaceful
When you're fast asleep

I love your huge eyes
I love all your chins
I love how you make me feel
When you start to grin

I love all your dimples
I love the way you drool
I love the way you make me dance
And jump up like a fool

I love your giggle
I love all your folds
I love the way you wiggle
When your head's too heavy to hold

I love how you give me
A purpose to live
A reason to be good
A reason to forgive

I love how you've changed
The life I thought I knew
You've help me find
What is really true

I love your smile
I love your pout
I love how you remind me
What love is all about

I love your long lashes
I love when you laugh out loud
I love how you make me feel
Oh so very proud

I'll let you go to sleep now
My sweet angel from above
And I love that by tomorrow
I'll find even more of you to love

My Sun, My Air

11/18/06

Her eyes are mesmerizing
I cannot withdraw
I'm locked into it's hold
They reflect my awe
Of how someone so pure
And quite unexpected
Was able to unearth love
Not previously detected

Her smile is my sun
Her laugh is my air
Her cry reminds me
To always be there
Abandon all my fears
Abandon all my doubts
Drain away my tears
Find what she's about

Her life has just started
But her energy is wise
She advises me
To take off my disguise
She's given me the role
To be the architype
To teach her the differences
Between the wrong and the right

Her smile is my sun
Her laugh is my air
Her cry reminds me
To always be there
Abandon all my fears
Abandon all my doubts
Drain away my tears
Find what she's about

I am a reflection of her
And she's a reflection of me
Her eyes are my mirror
Of who I want to be
It's my time to wake
And set my heart free
She is my land
And I am her sea

Anxiety

(10/16/06 - 11/18/06)

Anxiety pounds against my body
My ribs are caving in
It's getting hard to breath
The air is getting thin
I wish I could just leave
Abandon all the fears
Escape from all the pressure
Dry up all the tears

I try to let go
Of the weight inside my heart
I don't know where to go
I hope it isn't far
I want to release the tension
And throw away my doubt
But then I start to panic
And look for a way out

Love is hard for me
I still hold resentment
From the wounds I've received
That have made me demented

But through the gloom
There is the sun
I love to hold her
We both are one
She keeps me sane
When sanity hides
She sticks by me
Through my silent cries

I tried to start her out
With the best life I could
I ignored my inner vioce
And did what I thought I should

Now here I am
Trying to compensate
For the choice I made
I hope its not too late
I thought I would rob her
Of a normal family life
So I jumped into the role
Of becoming a wife

Can I change my perceptions
Can I place my bet
That this might work
Or is the path already set
I'm trying my best
To make all things right
We'll see where it goes
Hopefully it might

Doubts

3/21/2006

Too much to know, too much to say
The questions in my head just wont go away

My mind ready to explode any minute
Overflowing with anything that soaks into it

Punching me, hit after hit
I cant keep up with all of it

Change ain't always good
But should be expected
It's woken up the secrets
That have long been neglected