Lonely Waters

08-17-07

I dream to one day bathe
In a pool of my pain and tears
Accompanied by his presence
And the protection of his heart
No need for more assistance
But I know he isn't far

He is waiting at the surface
Making sure I do not drown
He watches me dive
Deeper into my sorrow
He believes I will survive
But is always ready to follow
Follow me when I start to stray
When my thoughts start to spiral
And my spirit has lost its way

I feel his hold
As he carries me to the surface
He gets there quickly
I'm locked in his stare
He brings me up gently
To where the sea meets the air

Then he lets me go when I'm ready
To take another dive
Because he knows that through it all
I have the strength to survive

But alas, he's not wading in the water
He's not even in the same sea
He's on a distant land hoping for the day
I'll come out of my own misery

It's understandable, however
The waters are quite rough
The waves are harsh and brutal
Unsympathetic to your request
The sharpness of its memories
Make it hard to find any rest

So I continue to swim
Alone along this shore
Hoping to just find
My own piece of mind
Trying to depend
On myself and no other
But it would be nice to take this trip
Swimming by the side of my lover